And what can I say to you that won't either make you feel bad or make me sound petty as all Hell, Jan? That I'm jealous? Because I am. I'm very much jealous of you and Tony right now. I'm jealous of Aeron, Matthew, and Jen. You're planning a life with him, you're planning a child. And what do I get? A woman who won't talk to me beyond missions or planning what weekend I get to have my son. Students who can't decide whether I'm scum or not half the time, and don't get me wrong, I love those kids, but I need a personal life, too.
[He sighs and finally sits down, but on a different piece of furniture.] I see everyone else, and how they're happy, or at least managing, and here I am. You know, most people I meet that don't know me? Avoid me because of my reputation.
I'm just...I'm just sick of it all, Jan. You don't know just how.
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Date: 2012-08-18 05:40 pm (UTC)[He sighs and finally sits down, but on a different piece of furniture.] I see everyone else, and how they're happy, or at least managing, and here I am. You know, most people I meet that don't know me? Avoid me because of my reputation.
I'm just...I'm just sick of it all, Jan. You don't know just how.